Sunday, February 24, 2013

Pause. Rewind.

I can't believe how fast time goes by.  I started this Radical experiment on 2/7 and it's already 2/24.  I feel like it hasn't been a week.  Our lives really aren't even a blip on the time plane.  There's so much I want to do and every day I'm running out of time.  Every day I'm losing chances.  Every day I'm losing moments.

If only I could go back and reclaim those years I lost wandering desolately and running away from God.  Where would I have ended up if I had let Him in years ago?  Probably way better off than where I'm at now.  26 and nothing to show for it.

I have this sense of urgency and there aren't enough hours in the day to get where I want to be.  I want to finish reading the Bible so I can start reading it again with more knowledge this time around.  I want to take online seminary courses on the history of the text.  I want to do mission work in so so so many countries.  I want a family.  I want a farm and a simple life in the country with a good husband and however many children God wants to bless me with.  There just isn't enough time.  I'm too late already.

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